holding back with every fear that i contain

I have so many emotions right now its ridiculous. Im trying so hard to straighten out my life, and slowly, with each passing day a now simple task has twisted and expanded into a ever more complicated one. And I sit here and contemplate how something so easy has become so difficult...
ive made it that way. ME.


Its not just the major conflicts ive caused myself...its the littlest things that are truely eating at me.
Its wishing on falling stars...
Its dreaming with every thing I am...
and holding back with every fear that i contain.


Im a little lost. I got to where i finally know what I want, and how to achieve that goal.
And as always life has thrown me through loop after loop challenging me to make the right decisions...have i failed that challenge?
There is never a sure way to know whats right...your friends, family can't make that decision...you only know whats right when you feel it in your heart.


LAME.
Here is where my problem lies...my heart. What exactly do I want? (And do I want them for the right reasons?) Like I said im a little lost...well not just a little...I feel like im wondering aimlessly. I see myself making decisions I know aren't right. But I want them to be. And if they aren't right, why do they feel that way.
Logical vs. Emotional satisfaction. Who will come through?


Well just have to see if everything Im fighting for is worth the fight.
I just hope Im making the right decisions...because ive made a lot of the wrong ones...
And I don't think i would be able to handle another mistake.