so there is this boy...

...and he kind of has my heart.

i had forgotten what it was like to feel like this.
to feel like the world stops when he looks at me.
to feel like everything is finally as it should be.
to feel happy all the time.
to feel...in love.

i love this feeling and i love him.

there's nothing like you and i <3

typical male behavior

typical male behavior has really been getting under my skin lately. now, i don't mean to speak for EVERY guy, i know there are tons of fabulous, sensitive, thoughtful and caring dudes out there. (where they are hiding, though, is something i still have to figure out)

it's just that male conduct that i've observed recently has been as followed:
1. meet nice girl
2. pursue nice girl
3. make nice girl fall for you
4. give her all kinds of attention and affection
(repeat step 4 for a few months)
5. slowly start repealing aforementioned attention and affection
6. begin to make nice girl feel like a totally insane bitch when she mentions that she misses aforementioned attention and affection
7. demand space and act like a total immature ass when nice girl just wants to work on things and talk it out
(repeat step 6 for a few more weeks)
8. dump nice girl OR distance yourself/make yourself so impossible that she is forced to dump you
9. let girl live in confusion for a few weeks to a few months wondering where she went wrong
10. let girl move on and create her own new life
11. make contact with girl claiming you want a friendship
12. drop the bomb on her that you completely fucked everything up and are so totally in love with her, always have been and can't possibly live without her

now, step 13 can be a few things:
either: act like a complete insane asshole when the girl has decided to completely move on , forget you, and date others.
or: repeat steps 2-8
OR: actually learn your fucking lesson and treat the girl you claim you cannot live with out like the princess she truly is.

kthx!

it seems like nothing's happened until i've shared it with you

i just want to find someone i can be myself with.

& have meaningful conversations with.

conversations that don't end up in awkward silences.

i just want to find someone who smiles at something simple.

& laughs at things that most would only smile at.

i just want to find someone who i can learn a thing or two from.

& who i can teach a thing or two to.

i just want to find someone who will make me feel alive.

someone who i will connect with so well that i won't even be able to believe it.

& neither will they.

i just want to find someone who i can thoroughly enjoy life with.

someone who i can recount every memory of everyday with.

& someone who will want to recount every memory of everyday with me.

i just want to find someone who wants to find me just as bad.

i know that there's someone sitting at their dining room table just like me

& thinking the exact same thing.

"i just want to find someone...."

well.

let's find each other.

let's talk & let's smile & laugh.

let's teach each other a thing or two.

let's feel alive.

let's connect.

let's enjoy life.

let's recount every memory of everyday.

i'll be searching for you.

but only if you promise to search for me just as hard.

i know you will.

i can't wait to find you.

is this real life??

This ^ is David.
He has just come back from the dentist,
and he is feeling goooood lol.

Enjoy!